It’s becoming exhausting
I must admit that writing daily is becoming exhausting. Every day, I try to reflect on something I find interesting, but the past couple of nights have been especially tough to think and structure my thoughts. It’s probably because I’ve had a lot on my plate lately. Between social commitments, work, and trying to find time for my other hobbies, by the end of the day, my brain simply can’t keep up.
However, it’s been a very interesting activity. On nights like this, creativity is truly put to the test. At some point, I felt like I started writing better and faster, but right now, I’m considering that doing it non-stop is having a negative effect. Plus, since I haven’t had much time for my hobbies, inspiration is just stagnant, and at least today, I don’t know what to write about.
We have to consider that, even though this is daily writing, the type of creativity being tested is different from what I would use if I were writing fiction. I keep in mind that this is something public, personal, and where, in a way, my opinions and life experiences will have an impact, whether I want them to or not. I’m not saying one is more difficult than the other; I mention it because, at least for me, when working with fiction, it’s sometimes easier to let the pen flow and create wildly.
All of this has led me to the obvious conclusion that taking breaks is necessary. I’m in one of those periods where I feel like even my body can’t rest properly due to the various things I have to handle daily. Sometimes, like today, I end up writing until 1 or 2 in the morning, even though my mind is begging for sleep. I’m not a night owl or someone who usually stays up late, and most of the time, I write between 10:30 pm and 12 am. But there are days when it’s simply impossible to do it at another time, and my desire to stick to this commitment is stronger.
After all, I wanted to do this because, for several years, I felt like I couldn’t commit to writing. Whether I had free time or not, I would find an excuse not to do it. Because writing is hard and brings along many challenges that test our self-esteem, skills, willpower, ego, and trigger that eternal struggle against perfectionism and other aspects of being a creator.
Now, I do the opposite. Whether I have free time or not, I find an excuse (a way) to do it. I believe that’s very valuable. That’s discipline, and it was something missing in my life.
Thanks for reading.